Second Tears

  Frankly,I can be a very hardworking guy when it comes to business and doing job,I would put my commitment over 100%,I don’t care about sleepless night ,limited times with friend,as long as I executed my job perfectly and inshaAllah good payment will be well deserved.Why I can be that such guy?

Because I have a dreams . A dreams to make my family happy and proud. The pressure to be a good example as a big brother to my siblings beholds inside me.To pay for anything as they wish. I strive and waiting for that moment to come.It always embedded in my mind ,that time will surely come one day. I put a very high hope,with that money ,at least I could bring my siblings to Japan,my parent to Turkey and send Che Yoh to perform Umrah.

 When that time seems to come,it’s gone into ashes in a blink. All that money that I’ve been saving since 3 years ago gone nowhere undetected. Inevitably, I saw faces of my family right on the wall of my rooms,Mak,Ayah,Adik adik,Che Yoh . 

 I’m hard to cry person,honestly. Today,is the second time I shed tears in 6 years ,since I came to Egypt. I realized,I haven’t cried for so long.I’ve been cheated twice in business.The first one was during my Second Year in Egypt,costs me around RM 15K ,all my saving included 15 years of  duit raya.My 20 years old self can still hold that.I didn’t shed even a drop of tears. 

 And today,someone just scammed me,I lost a bigger amount ,RM 220 000,I am the one who asked them for an investment.It actually given me a good return for the first few months.Its too good to be true ,and it already happened. When it confirmed to be a scam,I  called my parent and tell them every details of the story.

    When talking to them,I don’t know ,I just cannot comprehend it,I was just doing fine talking and explaining on what has happened,I felt so sad not because I lose all the money ,it’s because I felt that I failed to become a good son and make them sad and still at this point no tears touching my cheek.

  I expected them to scold me or at least reprimanded me.Instead of it,my mom said,

    

   “Takpe la min,mungkin Allah nak uji,nak suruh kita jadi orang yang bersabar,tak sombong.Mungkin ini ada salah dari Mak sendiri,Allah nak tegur,duit boleh dicari,pergila makan,lepastu tidur,mak dan ayah tak marah pun,biasala tu bisnes dan pelaburan,tak boleh lari dari untung rugi.”

A tears were flooding around my eyes and slowly showered my cheeks. I tried to keep my heart together not to make them notice . 

Then Ayah added,

“Ayah pun selalu kena tipu masa zaman muda muda dulu,lepas ni kena hati hati la,jangan mudah percayakan orang.”

Once Ayah finishes his word,my heart cannot hold it anymore,I never cried in front of my parent,I always showed my stronger side when they’re around,but today,I cried like a baby . I cried because of their abundant love and endless support to me even at my weakest point.I promise to myself,in 10 years,this tears are going to be worthy.

Cairo,
28/1/2020
AMINZAHARIE.